I won’t sugarcoat it-this month has been emotionally draining. It’s been a whirlwind of trying to hold it all together while simultaneously feeling like everything is slipping through my fingers. And the worst part? Half the time, I didn’t even know why I felt the way I did. I just knew something was off.
I’ve felt disconnected-from myself, from my routines, and even from the people I love most. The smallest things were getting to me. I’d wake up already overwhelmed, overthinking situations that hadn’t even happened yet. I’ve also had this lingering sense of being “on edge,” like I was waiting for something to go wrong. And honestly, that’s exhausting.
At the same time, I’ve had moments of clarity. Little wins where I gave myself grace instead of guilt. Where I noticed I was spiraling and gently pulled myself back. Those moments reminded me that I am growing, even when it feels like I am stuck.
This month also brought out the side of me that craves deep connection-like, “put your phone down and look me in the eye” kind of connection. I realized how often I settle for surface-level interactions when I’m actually yearning to feel seen, heard, and prioritized. That hit me hard.
What Triggered It
A lot of what I felt this month stemmed from miscommunication, unmet expectations, and not carving out enough time for myself. I kept running on empty, showing up for everything except my own peace of mind. And when you do that long enough, your emotions eventually come knocking-loudly.
What I’ve Learned
- I need more quiet in my life. Less reacting, more reflecting.
- I need to stop brushing off my emotions just because “other people have it worse.”
- I deserve to feel prioritized, by others and by myself.
- My feelings aren’t too much-they’re valid, even when they’re messy.
Moving Forward
Next month, I’m making emotional check-ins a regular thing. Not just when I hit a breaking point, but throughout the week-on the good days and the bad ones. I want to build a relationship with my emotions instead of avoiding them until they explode.
So here’s to being honest with myself. Here’s to holding space for the girl who’s doing her best, even on the days when she feels like she’s falling apart.
Checkout my May Growth Reflection
Here are a couple journals I recommend for emotional check-ins
